I’ve waited before. I’ve prayed, fasted and waited for God to answer. That whole thing of God not showing up in our time-frame isn’t something I’m not familiar with. What I hadn’t experienced is waiting on God in the midst of gut wrenching physical pain. It was as simple as a pinched nerve but I had no idea how much pain a little nerve could cause.
After five months of doctors and medication nothing was helping but it was time to go to Thailand. I boarded the plane leading eleven others on an outreach trip and trusted that God knew what He was doing. My constant question was why would He call me to lead a trip like this but not heal this nerve? Why was God waiting? What was He waiting for?
I found myself at the bottom of a muddy mountain watching these tiny Thai women piling cinder blocks on their heads and trekking up the mountain. Our mission that day was to help them get the blocks up to where they were building a home for a family. This was it! This was where my physical limit would be reached. There wasn’t any way I was going to ask my team to work and I wouldn’t so I jumped in. I’d go as far as I could. Block after block after block went up. We finished the job!
Tired and sore that evening I could feel the piercing pain rising up. This certainly had to be it. It was it, but not in the way I was thinking. God had been waiting because what He was doing wasn’t just about me. The team prayed over me and the next morning there wasn’t a hint of pain. For the rest of the trip, there wasn’t any pain. No medication and no pain. For the first time in five months the mobility in my neck had come back. Pinched nerve was gone.
Why did He wait? He waited because He had a bigger plan. He was with me every day of those five months. He was with me every step up that muddy mountain. In every day and through every step He was showing Himself and speaking to hearts His desire to heal. My healing was physical but through it He healed others in different ways.
When God waits it’s not Him being unaware or disinterested. It’s not that He’s not hearing our prayers. There’s a larger plan in place. Lean on the truth that He promised never to leave us or forget about us. He’s in every day and every step.